jesusfreako

2006-09-28T02:00:00.000+08:00

many things i wanna to do after my assessment.

take note: my assessment is over.

1) to catch a movie
2) to sleep
3) to shop
4) spend time with my disciples
5) to the beach
6) to catch up with my friends.
7) to make creations
8) to have time alone. just alone
9) to write my diary
10) to touch up my work
11) to exercise

that all. perphaps.

thanks for the blessings and greeting. taken note and going to jot down in my diary.

18. oh well.

2006-08-31T13:07:00.000+08:00

some thoughts to share.

two terrible, struggling week i had been through.
wondering why and why it happened.
throughout the journey, i am confused finding my way through what God wants to tell me through it.
hopeful for the breakthrough and i believe it is as i am seeing a transformation in each members life.
still i wonder why, it happens to me.
not depending on God enough? partly sometimes i am and quickly get back. but that dont seem the point i am struggling.
until this morning i came to realise something while i am doing my masterlife.
God reveals to me alot. last week we were talking about emotions. God is seeing how much i allow emotions to control me or how much i control emotions.
it can be tough, but i think this is the breakthrough i am seeking for very long too. God is testing me and i am glad he does. i can tell u, i failed many tests but a good news is till now, He is still testing me. another better news for me is i begin to know how to see emotions in christ perspectives. heh! is not easy but if u don go through it, how do u win the victory. we are called to be christ-like. and i believe this is one of those we will go through too.

life here is a luxury. that is what the world promotes. but sees it as a whole. many wondering lost souls seeking for truth in their vacuum heart. see, people suffering in the inside, burden by money, the many things they regret to fufill in their lifes.

my dear brothers and sisters, wake up and SHARE. they are God's children too.
lets not be self-centered christians but radical ones! :)

2006-08-14T03:48:00.000+08:00

looking forward to that day when Christ return :)

self-control. God taught me self-control today through an event that supposingly not to be happened at all. :) i learnt my lesson. thanks ade. :)

and definitely, pushing and praying for a breakthrough besides me and cg and also to the people that i want to meet. and tt is peiting and vivian. please keep them in prayer. :)

practice 2 hrs of ballet today. my sis taught me. she is good. thank God for her. :) and i need alot of practices before heading back to my ballet grades. its is tough but God is my strength. through this 2 hrs i practice patience (cos i am quite irritated and tired cos is is like from 11pm-1am) haha. but i manage to pull through from the hard works and pain. :)

talking to my disciples are a great pleasure. ha. seeing them so passionate about Him. makes me want to serve Him more and never forget seeing how my King changes our life though i claim myself that i am a big mess in the past :)

bible study is awesome. i want to know more about the other religions. today bible study. i constantly remember my dearest friend, fahmi.

alot of undone work to be completed. not stress at all ultimately i enjoy what i am doing. haha. though i am clueless about the things that i am going to do. but who is my creator? God. so HE is the creator of everything and so i have Him always and i love Him cos He is the one that accompany me 24 hrs 7 days without fail. :) and He guides me how to do my work too :)

now is 4am, i am thinking whether should i sleep or continue to work on the things i am doing.

lastly, i want to thank God for even allow me to have the energy and inspiration to post this post. though this is so random but yet i find it quite meaningful la. :)

i got to find out this word 'kaisu' is approved in oxford now. and is a english word. :S

2006-08-10T00:17:00.000+08:00

love letters from my dearests:

Jielong

hey, thanks for the bookmark. and really thanks for speaking to me. i feel great after telling you about it or else yesterday i might be sian sian during the the service le. take care XD

6/8/06

Meiyan

thanks sister always the one being there for me. oso to support me. You noe i really felt encourage each time u encourage me. really thank God that he had input ya in my life. help me whenever i am in need. is becos of u that i had learnt so much.I love u sister.

7/8/06

kohtee

steff i thank u for wat u have done for me. u are my dearest sister in my eye. thanks so much for letting me to get right with God love u <3

10/8/06

this lil notes really touch me alot. how God use me to work in them and i did, and i am excited to see each of them growing more and more christ-like.

each of them are very dear and precious to me. i cant afford to lose them, seriously.

but through all these growth, i want to thank Adel and Wanping for their great teachings :)Ultimately. MY GOD! thanks so much for U to be the one changing their life Just for U! i love u, My KING :)

2006-08-05T23:52:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i really don understand God's way of doing things. but i still obey.

suffering from over sunburn tension. it is painful.
i am going to age somemore again.

A note for all gals. u are God's honourable creation. remenber that :)

2006-08-03T01:36:00.000+08:00

as it can be seen, that my current blog is going through a massive changes. will revamp my blog when i have time :)

God currency of LOVE is TIME

to me, is using the time to evangelise to show CHRIST LOVE :)

till then, see u guys.

2006-07-21T02:10:00.000+08:00

i have SOOOOO much things to share to u guys what God did to my life these days.

:)

update soon or i will tell u personally.

2006-07-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

today cell group is awesome and always is :)

especially during small group sharing, the spirit of God is there.
prayers being answered. life changing experiences being seen.
what make my heart melts is ' God, U are always so wonderful to me and my people. i am willing to serve You and them'

i am willing and wont give up until i meet God face to face and say ' God, i have finish the race, i have done my best, i have fufill what u have for me and glorify YOUR SON in heavens and on earth.'

yes. today sharing goes all glory to God. it doesnt make it like a sharing anymore. one ear in and one ear out, sometimes being distracted but now it turns out like a training ground. preapring each member like a soldier, teaching them more than sharing to them and imparting them all the things that God has teach me. preparing them for eternity and for the future. awesome isnt it?

i am excited to fight the war with my people.
i love u guys truly. God has been gracious. :)

redo. yes. redoing all my assignment that i am asked too.
but i enjoy it and without complaints. i am willing. i am doing all for God
redo, i love u more than i used too at least during my sec school life. :)

let me live a radical life out of ur Glory :)

2006-06-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

looking at the perspective of God's Kingdom.

pastor daniel, it is well said.

how many times would we do things looking the perspective of God's kingdom?
been thinking the whole day and sometimes it really difficult to commit into that.

i have to confess that God sometimes i am too caught up to this world.
and i don want to be citizens of this world neither.

and i want the best for my disciples. i want my disciples to grow more like u. i want my disciples to be able to face before u and confidentently reply u that they done their best. i want them to be the one that is passionately reaching out for the lost. i want them to be prepare for persecution and not fearing. i want them to be strong in their faith for U. i want them to be praising U all day. i want them to live for u with their whole heart, whole soul and whole mind.

i want them to be chasing after U and not the world.

God, start with me.

2006-05-24T18:52:00.000+08:00

my second post of the day.

this is what i type in my phone this morning and i remember what i wanna to blog yesterday. :) heh!

things i wanna to do before school starts:
1) go shopping, in jb or anywhere. :)
2) buy two journals, one for my spiritual life, e other is for my school :)
3) going to the sunny beach for some ultimate frisbee :D heh!
4) having chalet
5) catch movies: da vinc code and mission impossible 3.
6) class gathering
7) go for holidays for vintage bargains (highly impossible)

random thoughts of what i wan to do this morning:
1) evangelising to my friends or any strangers :)
2) sing out loud
3) talking to God on sinai mountain just like moses did
4) to cut my hair

things i have been wanting to do and i might give it a try:
1) triathalon (right spelling) planning to train myself up first :) heh!
2) marathon :)
3) to play roller coaster :) errs.

i miss quite a number of ppl now. and i need coffee too! :)

2006-05-24T18:46:00.000+08:00

two tough nuts to crack.

God, i need u to guide me and help me. only u can crack it :)

2006-05-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

i must update. :)

God has been so gracious towards me.
thank God!
sometimes i don think i can do it but its a miracle that things turn out differently.
and upon reading weiwei blog.
yes. placing God in the picture will make the picture different as it suppose to be. :)

and reading bible on the train early 5 plus is awesome! haha! studying the word of God. am reading relevation and was amaze by how God would tell us what is going to happen in the future. :) am looking forward. and get to start work with God. :)

yawns! tmr is another working day. but am looking forward after 4pm each weekdays :)

2006-05-21T23:56:00.000+08:00

only I can seek the best solution from HIM.
only Him can make things different.

everything is change, everything is different.
only because of Him.

and He is Jesus.

i will continue to Pray Until Something Happen. and not pray only when something has happened. =)

2006-05-18T22:31:00.000+08:00

weird person.

he has a very weird character.
u cant understand him well. and nobody does.
he talks alot but yet sometimes u cant seem to understand what he is trying to say.
he is a 'law by law, book by book' person but these few days he reveal his weirdness is treating different sort of people.
bias treatment.
this doesnt bother me. but is super weird for someone to give me unexpected morning call and fright me up! and truly without him, life is a FREEDOM! :) he admitted himself too.

this is so weird!
i am place under a weird 'leadership'.
and gladly SATURDAY IS COMING! i cant wait for friday to end as SOON as possible. :)

updates for today. i have something nice to share. :)
doing discipleship today with wilson.
he is a changed guy from the start i met him. :)
thank God that He is the only one that is able transform us to be more Christ-like.
haha.
his friends came along to meet us too.chat with their friends and they ask me abt christianity. thank God u are with wilson and me.
keep peiching in prayer yeah! thanks! :) to all Godchasers and whoever wants to pray. hopefully me and wilson able to bring her back to God. :) and i believe it will.
and why i say he is a change person. come and ask me and i will share with u. :)
thank wilson for ur chocolate fudge cake too. :) i am not bribe for CFC just to say he is changed but he really is. :)

thank God for the wonderful week. i like to read YOUR bible in the train and everywhere! :)

2006-05-07T13:05:00.000+08:00

long time no post. :)

sermon was great yesterday. it really allows me to reflect more.
reflects on how much i depend on God, how much i think of God and how much i want God to be place in charge of my whole life.
and thinking how much i would trust in God abt my whole purpose.
i reflect upon it and am excited that
I WANT TO TRUST HIM AND HIM TO BE IN CHARGE 100%! =)

i have to say this is a big committment but i am glad to do so. without Him means without me.
sometimes i have to admit i rely on myself that i forgot to put God in the picture, and i feel why something is amiss den i realise OH MY! I forgot the most important ONE! and thats God!

it wouldnt happen again.
thank God for being so faithful always.

this month is may. school is starting soon in abt two to three weeks.
looking forward to why God would place me in this course.
but in all i have set a sight that i will do my best to bring Him glory. :)

i have posted.

2006-04-17T15:52:00.000+08:00

God is love.

i came to realise and experience that love is not based on emotion
but is based on an action and burden for the person u care.
and truly God shows it all in the bible how He wants His people to be save and how much He has for His people.
indeed it trues.

i learn to love the people around me even more!
thanks to all my disciples and friends, u allow me to understand this. :)

2006-04-02T11:22:00.000+08:00

its really very amazing for the past two weeks i am facing.
when you rely on God strength, everything seem so wonderful.
and the most amaze things i realise this week is, i donnoe why i find discipleship never a tiresome stuff anymore.
i am so excited to find my disciples each week :)
is not abt sharing book by book and talk abt the same stuff to all my disciples
but is abt knowing abt their lives and helping them when they are in needs.
problems may seem BIG and unmanageble but i always keep in mind that MY GOD IS BIGGER! :)

another thing that comforts me is that my disciples share their lives to me, share their problems, share everything to me! :)
and the BEST thing to see is that how life is being transform! :)

thanks God for all my disiciples in my life. i LOVE you! :)

and definitely, there more things i need to learn and be alert on.

Holy spirit let me be sensitive to U, not be anxious or troubled but be wise in managing everything. :)

something that i learn is when ya choose to depend on God, everything even problems seem to be under the control. and u never find it troublesome or tiresome. but you will enjoying overcoming all the problems in GOD's way. yes!
be it exams, studies, work and everything :)

praise God.

2006-03-16T22:46:00.000+08:00

Our God is bigger than the air i breath, the world i see :)
the Joy of the LORD is my STRENGTH :)

thanks for all the encouraging tag!
and thank God for letting me go through this stage.

ya noe something. this Forty days purpose is really a transformation for everyone!
yes!
though i did it for the second time but everytime i learn new things.
this time i learn new things again!
everyweek is a different thing for me. it seem like i experience new things after reading the book.

i shall share one of the weeks i face.
throughout the whole week i have been facing things from humans.
is tiring and i have to deal with it with wisdom from God.
i find it so tiresome why am i doing this things.. WHY?!!!
at the point of giving up.
but after reading abt serving others. i realise oh my, i am so self-center sometimes. it shouldnt be that way. and definitely, i recongnise that, HEH! i am fighting a spiritual war. devil is out to attack me and steal my JOY!

i don want to be serve but to serve.
and God show me that HE is the one that i should also be accountable too. yes!
He holds everything! :)

thank God! i noe with you things wouldnt be smooth as it suppose to be being a christian, but, my joy will be complete! :)

2006-03-11T02:34:00.000+08:00

my dearest Dad,

ya have shown me that life isnt as easy as its thought.
a year older, is a new stage of decision making, knowing how to deal problems, handling of people.
sometimes, i even thought of giving up, even at the verge of breaking down
but BECAUSE OF YOU, i stand on.
because You are the source of everything. You let me think back how ya stay on this earth, how You handle situations, people.
YOU FACE THE WORST problems which nobody does till now.
compare to mine, mine is minor.
thinking, i cant give up cos i just cant allow my people to suffer.
i understand how You feel now when ya don want ya people to suffer of their own sins and wickedness, thats why ya die on the cross.
compare to mine, mine is minor.
but You let me understand everything now.

God, i desperately cry out.

I NEED YOU TO BE THE CENTER OF MY LIFE!

be my teacher to guide me all along. i hunger for You!

people, is God in the every heartbeat of your life now?

2006-03-10T12:04:00.000+08:00

sometimes its really hard to explain or even describe the things ya wanna to say.
but only One person that hears everything that i don have to worry whether i phrase my sentence right or wrong. because deep inside, HE noes what going on in me. He knows it. and He always find a solution or a way out for me. I trust in Him. only Him give me a sense of security, peace, joy and everything He has the best for me. that why, I depend on HIM :) only Him can show me the path to where He wants me to go. When i am tired, He gives me strength. He is always there talking to me. and I love His presence so much more than i can imagine. :)

He is JESUS. MY ultimate Friend. :)

2006-03-05T22:45:00.000+08:00

someone BUG me to update :)
ya should noe who you are yeah!

this week been a very hectic yet interesting experience for me
first time being an instructor in an adventure camp at Jalan batara.
woah!
first time handle students.
tough jobs. have to take control of them and take care of them.
no complaints k but still i did a little.. :)

DAKOTA 13&14!!! ya guys is still my beloves k!
please study hard and listen to ya teacher! be obedience!
and definitely i have fun with you! :)
be in one spirit like i see YOU GUYS in the camp fire yeah!

sentry duty has alot of funny things happened. just cant stop laughing
but guess all of us have fun listen to those silly sharings. hahaha

last of all. bukit view sec is so happening :)

2006-02-12T21:31:00.000+08:00

heh heh heh!

the joy of the Lord is my strength!
and God will provide exceedingly abundently! :)

yes! indeed true! :)
I want to praise God everyday without failing
i hunger for Him each day!
I yearn for breakthrough from Him!

yes! I, YOU, ALL OF US NEED HIM! JESUS!! :)

firstly! i want to say! God is an answering God
cos!!!!

GODCHASERS HAS NEW MEMBERS
1) Hester
2) sandy
3) kaget
4) kenneth

yes! God!! ya are the one that made dreams come true! :)
love ya to every bits of it!

everyone lets be passionate for the world! we have to share this good news and not to keep within ourselves this good news!!!
:)

and definitly, i have faith in God that He holds the best purpose and plan for me!
i am looking forward Jesus! :)

2006-02-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

i have many dreams and i have to admit i love to daydream :)

my DREAMS: (guess alot of ppl heard it)

1) to be a model on a runway show
2) to advertise in a toothpaste advertisment. i noe this is silly :)
3) to be a air stewardess
4) to a wedding planner and plan fabulous weddings!
5) to be able to dance a ballet performance at sydney opera house
6) to open a christian fashion line
7) to use a the world loudest loud hailer and tell ppl abt Jesus
8) i am asking for God for His dreams and PURPOSE for me

the top 5-7 sound impossible but the ultimate one is in HIM
and i noe all of us cant wait for our purpose and what is our purpose and what God has for us!
therefore it starts this sat! :) purpose driven life everyone!
i welcome all! tag me tag me or even msg me!
i am not advertising. i mean it! :)

results is coming soon! :) i smile.

2006-02-03T14:27:00.000+08:00

always think positive and joyful in all circumstances!
God send someone sweet and let me have a clear picture not relaying on my strength and emotions!

thanks adel :) ya are a great shepherd!

i learn something today! and remember to pray!

2006-01-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

its chinese new year again!
this year is kinda different, many things has change
just few hrs of chinese new year, somethings just hit me hard into me..
spoil my mood? nah!
i rejoice in all circumstances! :) thank God!
He clear away all the dusts and give me an open heart
whole day been praying and praying :)

went to my granny house first
mmm.. chit chat with my cousin and playing with nephew joshua! :)
he is so cute and ya noe something he is God's creation! when i saw him, oh my! i can just say WOW! :) he is not scare of strangers and kept smiling and giggling! just 3 mths old! He has good parent too! hahahaha!!! :D mmm.. nth much happen though my mind is gospel gospel.. i realise how difficult to share to close ones... but i will pray and try again this wed and sat! i believe with God i can do it! :) and this is also the first time that i see my granny children communicate so funny.. haha.. i mean not those funny but e way they correct english.. its liven up the atmosphere! :)

went to my grandma house..
my second father side aunt also tag along! :)
i love my cousins la.. in this household, we are like one big family for christ! :)
haha! having fun with them, nephew joshua has its nap and all of us including the lovely parents tag along and we play picture-dictionary.. something like tt.. haha! so much laughter and stupid actions! :)
but am looking forward to wednesday! where bothsides of my relatives gather! :)

PUSH! AND I WILL KEEP PUSH-ing! :)

2006-01-27T00:51:00.000+08:00

i need to edit my previous post abit... my cell also includes dearest yuling and tammy!
:)
been short term memory these few days..
i must sleep more! :) haha

okie.. been chatting with my sis!
nice chat eversince we had it! and its wonderful to noe how she is doing and how e family doing too! :) yeah!
its awesome!
realise she is also helpful and enthu in doing stuff!
very realistic person and always help family to find good bargains! :)
miss her lots now though we two are sometimes log-head? give me the right vocab. thanks! :)
i am gonna to read more newspapers! one of my 2006 resolution! :)
haha! ops!

2006-01-22T17:23:00.000+08:00

GOD CHASERS!

yeah! this is my CELL GROUP! hurray!
i am just as excited and bet everyone else too! :)
wanna to update for long on this! and noe yahoo! update more NOW!

my cell has my dearest shepherd called adelene! :)
and also my dearest pinfen :)
they are the one that always guide and always encourage me!
my other cell mates are lovely pengky, meiyan, qianyi, cynthia, joey, lumei, jazreel, yennie(v), peixia(v), tiffany(v) and jielong!
do i sound kiddish?! long time didnt write compo is like tt..
oh ya! i also got my NTL study bible! and guess what.. my daddy loves it too :)
ready to study futher more into the biblE!

i love God and hunger more and more and MORE!
did realise this yr is a yr of decisions-making, struggles of the opposition of the world and the hunger for God more!
thank you Jesus! YOU are AWESOME!

2006-01-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

choices are wide
decisions are hard to make
God or me :)

no longer working as a dentist assistant cos boss employ two permanent staff
thank God for e experience
God really brings me through a phrase of experience this yr
.. and its just e beginning. :)
He didnt bring me through a good experience but this time he brings me through an experience of making real decisions. wise. an action of faith
like e action of giving up dancing in that dance company
something similar

i choose His ways
cos i noe He has again the Best for me
i believe that.

2006-01-08T21:55:00.000+08:00

there is a common saying, every new year is a new beginning and new memories
i add on with new transformations.

i definitely looking forward to a new transformation of myself
how God change me and bring me to a higher level!
its exciting to see how God reveals His PERFECT plan for you and me :)

First time working and holding a new job- dentist assistant cum bao ka liao
its tiring yet fun and new experience to learn almost everything that will prepare ya for the future!
i want to say THANK YOU JESUS FOR THIS JOB! :)
but i realise working is not as fun as studying... blah!
but ya noe what God allow me to know something from this job!
God has reveal me that
1) i have a long way to being how Jesus is patience with us
- i realise that when i am facing different sorts of patients and phone calls
2) work with joy!
-allow me to realise that no matter what circumstance and though the job is tiring, work with joy and no complaints :)
3) God is always with me and He is taking charge of my day and my life and my work!
- i learn that when i am too focus on my job, that loses my focus on God that He is there when circumstances comes, He is my strength! :)
4) always smile when ya work :)
-i noe it maybe hilarious cause ya have to smile arh.. but how about facing someone which i heard never smile in his life (fierce, nasty).. erps! that why, i realise it is so amazing that God gives us teeth so we can smile beautiful and realise smile don need to be practise?! :)
5)always give thanks to God when ya end your work!
- yeah! always give thanks cos God is the one that allow things to be happen in His ways! HE LOVES US! wow! :D

and there is also a new change in cell! :)
i am so excited to see how God is going to use this cell to impact people lives and greater purpose for us!
and i can see from those times since i come cell how God allow this cell to survive and transform through trials!
and i can say this a new begining for all us!
:)

adelene! always remember you are being love by me! and i will always keep you in prayer! :)
adelene is my shepherd! :) i can see how God has change her through time and i am deeply encourage and her action always spur me up and allow me to reflect upon my walk with God! :)
thank God for you sweetie shepherd! :D

this year is gonna be so EXCITING! :D

ssssss

2005-12-26T23:41:00.000+08:00

heh! new update for this post and this post is going to be a super LOOOONNNGGG one :)

2005

a new year for me :) new beginning of life and ready to face new challenges

WORLDCHANGER :P

a year of major exam = Os = super dragging, tiring, memories in school, but just dislike the feeling of tremendous tests and exams and stay back BUT i MISS them :)

in conclusion, i have to say its much better than N level, phew! cos i learn to become more dependent on God :)

God's way = God's result

when i was flipping through my encouragement card yesterday
i was amaze dearly how God use me this yr :]

i still remember being an assistant team leader with weiwei for games day
haha :) really enjoy those times shopping with her and leading the team! :)
thanks weiwei for being such a great leader and teaching me how to lead too!
haha!
indeed i thank God for weiwei, ya noe why? cos her actions set an example of how a true christians behave that allow me to learn too :)
and i invite sandy and shuying :) they enjoy the session alot but i pray that God will continue to work in them for this new year

den went for alive conference, planet shakers spur me on too ;)

oh ya! and also amazing race!!! haha! team 24! :) i love the race, i remember the team work we guys have! amazing! and we came in 2nd with jelly legs :) haha..
this time i invite norman, jeremey and vincent :) they enjoy the games and keep chatting in class about it.. haha
but ya.. will still continue to keep them in prayer
but also quite disappointed that recently am smsing norman to come to church den he decided and said he wants to become a free thinker.. brrrr.. but you noe what?!
NOTHING CAN STOP MY WAY LA :) WILL STILL BRING HIM

and wan ping side also do street E at lot one and bukit batok.. i remenber we have alot of salvation! thank God! and i want to do MOREE :D

den we have mission trip! wow! i just LOVE it! :D what more can i say :) its always awesome! refer to my entry for more.. haha

after mission is always CAMP! :) and actually ya noe what, i am super amaze and i come to realize tt i am a team leader.. erps! quite slow rite i mean i noe i am during camp just that didnt realise God appointed me in camp too.. haha.. but ya noe what i really enjoy serving God and being a team leader is not as easy as it is suppose to be, esp holding responsible in taking care and welfare and leading of the team, other than that i am like any other team member seeking more of God :)
i am always hungry for more spiritually! :)
God really talk through me alot alot
i want to share this part.. haha
oh ya! i am from DAvid TRIDE :) yeah! - a man after God's heart yeah! :D

DAVID 2 consist of

-kenneth zhang (ATL) aka the one who loves barney song and trying his best to say Good Morning in high pitch ;)

- winnie aka peifen but prefer to be known as winnie :)

- yijun aka i think he looks like donald when he smile and he loves to smile :)

- janice aka the very sweet gal and always being tease by edward rite? :)

- elizabeth aka the gonna make it gal :)

- amanda aka the enthu one :)

- xiaozhen aka the da jie (oldest in the team ) :)

-evan aka tammy's nanny :)

- jason aka the funny one :)

- edward aka the one who have alot of quiz but all i get it correct :)

- yuling aka the one who is concern for all :)

-esther aka ready for all things

-junjie aka also always prepare one

-tammy aka the one everyone always find her and she likes to find evan and pastor daniel

i really LOVE my team :) and when it comes to sharing, everyone is passionate in sharing what they learn and i love the spirit of when everyone is praising and worshipping God in one spirit and truth! wow! yeah!
and really want to thank God that through this camp, God really have a breakthrough in their life.. this comforts me alot and spur me up to grow too! haha!
without david 2, i wouldnt enjoy so much yeah and thanks for all the fun, laughter and sabotaging me with that cup of water haha.. so fun but not the sabo one!
i still remember one part when all of us put the water in our mouth and see who can withstand the longest! haha.. so funny! i want to play again!:)

oh ya! actually through this camp have been praying for elizabeth and amanda.. every session i am praying for them and God hears my prayers! cos i see how God bring back elizabeth and amanda! thank God! :) i am so super duper JOYFUL! :)
and this camp is really a different one too.. cos my first time staying overnite with my team-mate in hospital, it made me feel so motherly! :) haha

the NEXT ONE will be CHRISTMAS BASH! :)
haha! i really enjoy myself yeah! the fun we have
i miss all the rehears, the dance, the testing of mic, the scripts and all the comical movements and jokes and props nevertheless the crew members!
yeah! God really make this bash possible!
everything we do is all Holy Spirit guided!

drama- syvester and adelene (directors), damian (old peter), junda(young peter), alicia( clubbing gal), zijian(friend 1), zhicheng ( joshua), cherly(cherly), mun chung (ac milan fan), me( youthful mummy) :)

dancer- audurina, mic bay, rosarina, andy, yennie, lini :))

haha! we sure have real fun and now i am missing everyone and everything! but no worries.. thursaday we have a drama gathring! yeah! :) haha! i cant wait :))

and i thank God for all the salvations on christmas bash! its awesome to see heaven populating! :D

and i thank God for cell group, rhoi that we have new members like lay peng, sarah, meiyan and jazreel in our midest! wow! :)

looking forward to the new year for more of God's calling! AWESOME!

MY GENERATION, MY RESPONSIBILITY :)

s

2005-12-20T23:53:00.000+08:00

Holy Woman :)

this precious title is given by my class yesterday..
so what wrong with attending church?
i just love MY GOD
and i am willing to serve Him in any ways!
:)
and pengky yesterday attended the party too!
so happy! she told me she invited 3 friends! yeah! hurray!
but on the other side, heard from her my another friend seem not doing well
and i witness it too..
but will talk to her and pray as well..
and thank God for yuling too! haha!

all glory to God!

shhs

2005-12-17T11:10:00.000+08:00

i say champions, ya say david
champions!
david!
champions!
david!

wow! i love this yr camp! in fact is every year! :D
new experience, new role
enjoy with my team-mates!
from the very first day, the ice melts! :) the bonding is great!
my team-mates are super enthu and very submissive to leaders!
i have to admit that they are!
i love david! david 2! :)
i am missing them now.. though is like only three days!
and i enjoy every moment with them! i love the spirit david and david 2 has it!

session time! :) i really enjoy every session.. every sessions seem to heard before but ya know what!
every session is filling up something in my spirit..
making me more fruitful and more like christ and hungry too! :p
every session, God is working in me, speaking to me!
His presence is so strong that every session i am crying
be it praise and worship or other moments!
i am always immerse in His great Love!
without Him, i will not be able to be joyfully taking care the team yeah!
if anyone want to ask me abt the sermon, c'mon yeah! :)
all glory goes to God for what He has done!
really thank Him yeah! haha.. because He is the only one i can seek help from! :)
and i want to say a GOOD NEWS!
who say God cant work miracles in singapore?
our God is the same God to all nations!
and in this camp there is a hearing miracle!
tammy, my team one is a 5yr old gal and ya noe what! she is once deaf and now she can hear!
amazing grace from God! :) thank God!
another testimony form tammy's sibling! jason and yuling! ya noe what! they say they never experience this kind of peaceful presence before, their load seem lighter, thay feel comfortable and assurance in that presence! and ya noe what? the presence is definitly from God! :)

my generation, my responsibilty!

oh ya! thanks everyone for ya encouragement cards and praise! :) sorry! didnt have time to write but i will compensate during christmas? :)

yeah! christmas is coming! i CANT wait for CHRISTMAS BASH!
bring ya friends yeah!

all glory goes to GOD! :D

sssss

2005-12-08T16:18:00.000+08:00

yaaaaaa-hooooo!!! :D
the hundreds youths are back!
AWESOME trip i ever had
and i miss roi-et now... ops! :)
i cant wait to go back to thailand to do missions again..
especially roi-et!
i cant wait to see how God use the church to impact the people in roi-et
i cant wait to see heaven populating and hell being plunder
i just cant stop rejoicing every salvation! :)

this trip is indeed awesome!
this is my first time going to villages!
this trip hits me most is the translators and the salvation in the people out there
i shall start with translators first
cos i have experience them, fearing to share christ with their people and some do not know how to share christ and nevertheless language barrier..

but language barrier is never a hindrance for me cos God is using me as a tool for His purpose and i noe when i am sharing, Holy Spirit is working in that person! that is on one occassion that i learnt that when i do not have any translators and my thai is lousy and the person i am sharing too do not noe how to read! :)

as for translators, i think the church cant work without them cos they are the ones that know what we are doing outside and what they are as well! is a joy for me to see these translators noe the importance of sharing and overcoming the fear! nevertheless, we have great co-operative work with them! awesome! :D

another is the healing, my first time seeing healings but i didnt expect so much of healings in people cos main concern is salvation! but i thank God that God heals the blind and the pain in people leg and some other dieases and illness! i have learn that God will show up His healings power when His time is right.

oh ya! another is i learn that we are fortunate to have a clean country and a nice comfy place to worship God! cos this is my first time seeing so many different insects and they are flying! and also the place the people stay really breaks my heart that why the temple there is much bigger than the house.. why they cant use the money to build better houses for the people!

lastly, this trip allow me to learn that these people receive christ is all age range, their little faith , leads them to salvation and they don find people for opinions or family decisions because they noe this is for themselves! and i want that little faith :) something amazing happening too, this little gal accepted christ, ya noe what she do? she started to lead her friend for prayer and praying for her after i share the gospels to her friend! i just Love that! :D

this trip also allows me to have more dependency on God and allow me to have patience and self control plus learning to co-operate with people!
and i really have to thank God for transforming me cos i cant believe myself grow so much after reflecting but i noe there is more to come! :)

and one more thing is my name is zhou ying nudi :) [zhou ying=princess, nudi= good girl]
hahahahahahahahaha! :)

sssss

2005-11-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

hi mr computer :)
sava? (how are you)
ya noe something..
i miss someone very dearly in every seconds..
just cant keep him off in my mind...
ops! did i reveal anything..
ya.. He is Jesus! :)
He has been great to me eversince i am born
but i begin to immerse in His love when i was 15
I love Him alot and looking forward to go this home sweet home 'heaven' :)

oh ya! when i was having my Os..
i Thank Him for being there for me..
i cant depend anyone else except Him
He teach me how to understand every topic and pull me through every tiredness
He allow me to have the wisdom so i can give a helping hand to my friends
He never forsake me! :)

and wonderfully wanna to announce my new cell group member
LAY PENG!
i pray that she will continue to be passionate in the Lord and a never ending learning experience about God!
wow! and she is coming to impact thailand too! :)
nevertheless, without her.. i would never learn new things and face new problems..
God has shown me but He has help me to pull through it..
how wonderful! :)

oh oh oh! and also Jasreel! she has also accepted christ!
she is a lovely sweetie that sings high pitch in choir ( i donnoe how to spell the term for that)
she is lovely and i pray that she will forever immerse in God loves and feel comfortable with us too!

and my mission team! i love them dearly! they are really good actors and actress
but
our main purpose is to impact thailand and put behind our differences! i cant wait! :)
8 more days!!! i cant wait for more trainings! :)

Jesus! i cant wait ya do that AWESOME work in thailand with us.. allow me to immerse in ya love so that i can shower your love to them! :)

2005-10-27T22:44:00.000+08:00

whee! fly fly fly!
i am flying with Joy!
haha.. i also donnoe why.. though ppl are mugging hard for exams
i take step by step :)
each step i progress, God is there to help me!
remember last year, was having my N levels
when into depression! terrifying! :S
imagine ya mug, chew and scream ya heads off..
the result of not trusting and have faith in God
learnt my lesson.. brrrr..
i wanna to thank Tiffany! sorry gal.. took so long to thank YOU :)
i mean tiffany lim yanting ar!
cos she is one that pull me through my Ns.. (not national service la)
still remember that time when i am really stress up
she accompany me, prayed for me and help me..
i still remember i wanna to scream.. she accompany me to the nearby brigde and screams...
haha.. hope ya are reading!
ya are just one of my beloved! :) *shys off*
another one is LIM yanting, vivian! :)
she is also one that pull me through my Ns..
and her aunt as well.. haha.. remember those time she also study with me and encourage me and prayed for me, sending those lovely dovey msg to calm me down.. haha! thank YOU! :) love you!
cell group members as well.. i love them.. haha... always pray for me and really pull me through those times.. haha.. i feel so LOVED! and i am still LOVE :D
and pastor daniel as well.. hope ya see the msg too
praying for me at late nights and hearing my problems
woo! hahaha!
and God for not leaving me behind.. He is there every moment!
I LoVE HIM :)
really feel so honour to have ya guys around!
ya make me grow and love my surrounding :)

anyway... God, ya proven me something special this week..
undescribable.. He let me learn how to handle situation and people..
thank God, i choose to learn ya ways :)

bs

2005-10-21T10:43:00.000+08:00

GOOD NEWS ANNOUNCE TO ALL :

MISSION MISSION MISSION!!! MY DAD APPROVE ME TO GO MISSION AT LAST! JUST TWO DAYS AGO!!! :)
19 OCT 05, 19:16 :)

I LOVE DADDY JESUS!
thanks for hearing my prayer and make it happened! :)
YOU ARE AWESOME!
thanks You!

i have a prayer list for all who loves to pray for me :)
through my practical examination, i thank Peng keep reminding me to stay calm.. haha :)
not those very good in analyse things, i realise myself.. :) haha.. was somehow disappointed just after i hand in my paper and realise i analyse something wrong.. :) haha.. but is just 15%! i can do better in theory to glorify ya name, Dad :)
but now, keep laughing to myself why my brain analyse so slow.. haha! but over is over... :)
thank God for the practical! :) thanks for accompanying me! ya are the only one i talk too through practical! :)

here goes my prayer list:
-distractions, i have huge distractions at home, some people noes what is it.. not my com la :)
-wisdom, my brain process very slow
-strength
-good memory
-spiritual life=> i think is very important in all christians, dont we?
-health
-able to restrain all temptations and save money for mission! :)

thanks all.. will update my Os timetable sooner :)

looking forward to Your wonderous plan! :D

sssssss

2005-10-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

"yes! i am God" He replied me not long ago :)
what i had learnt over the past few weeks sermons applied deeply in me
LOVE [yet to borrow notes and copy!!!! :S]
JOY!
PEACE!
PATIENCE!
these are four current fruits of the Holy Spirit :)
with HIM, i have JOY- which is not based on circumstances
stress-free! as i place my only focus on HIM
patience that is being achive through trials that He give me to mould me!
THANK YOU JESUS! :)
being trouble with all sorts of rubbish the world has.. esp recently!
but God has the power to change things round..
He allow me to see how beautiful His creations are but warning that we must continue to save souls! :)
this week is all abt meeting weird stuff.. but i thank God, first thing came to my mind is HIM! :)
i want to thank RHOI!
pin fen, adelene, tiffany, yennie, nadine, lay peng, lu mei, peixia, qianyi,karen
without them, i cant learn as much things and improve myself well with God help!

i want to be e saltier salt and brightest light! :D

anyway, been pondering..
actually.. what are gossips?
actually.. what are stress?
actually.. what are pessimistic thoughts?
acutally.. what are gloominess?
DEFINITLY, THEY are not my type of daily food :)

2005-10-07T11:18:00.000+08:00

no no no no NO!!!!
no worrying of marks! [useless]
no disappointment too! [i haven show my abilty yet!]
no disappointment that i cant promote!
just NO of what satan wants to lead me in! NO!
:)

anyway i am going to prove i can with JESUS~~
did you hear my daddy? :D
guys, i noe most of you are disappointed with me and my results...
going to prove to you i can make it! i am going to hit the target!
thanks for all your motivation! :)
JESUS been telling me always that he is with me always and FOREVER!
HE just told me that! :)
the only ONE that can bring me through this trial of knowledge, wisdom, emotional, physical, strength!

i trust in YOU, DADDY! :)

okie.. going back to my mugging land!
and prepare for tat hours of tutioning... :S
and mission trip is coming soon.. :D
keep them in prayer yeah! hurray!

ssss

2005-10-05T16:05:00.000+08:00

update time! :D
JOYFUL in all happenings, sufferings! :)

Daddy Jesus,
daughter steffie LOVES YOU :)

update a little more of my life!
i didnt score good grades for my prelims! :)
i might get 30 and above though i study :)
quite disappointed but i choose to be JOYFUL :)
pessimistic wouldnt help you to progress and gain sympathy
i need not need those sympathy cos i have DADDY! :D
i realise the more you are JOYFUL in christ, the more YOU wanna to progress for christ!
am i right to said that? ;P *winks*

okie, before i head for some joyful mugging :)
let me update courses i might want to enter in...

1) Innova JC
2) PJC
3) JJC
4) temasek poly- diploma in hospitality and tourism management
5) temasek poly-diploma in retail management :S seem boring
6) nee ann poly- diploma in banking and fiance
7) nee ann poly- early childhood
8) singapore poly- business of management
9) temasek poly- diploma in applied science F&N [seem boring]

ya... my choice for the moment not in any order.. people gives some suggestion k? :)
thankie yankie!
BUT afterall, is God that i ask for :D *teehee*

ss

2005-10-01T00:18:00.000+08:00

God is really working in the midest of US!
hardworking workers!
lets work hard and save more SOULS! :)
so amused by how God is working with us and i just wanna to SCREAM! *skip joyfully* :)
thank you God for being so faithful to us!

anyway have a chat with my mum and got to noe how daddy is so faithful to God..
not trying to say he is not faithful but rather amuse by his keeping quiet in doing things just for GOD!
take for example,
when my sis, tiff, got thyroid, my dad has been fasting till my sis got cure! and its a month! so as my mum too!
i am so amused! :)
due to seriousness the sickeness my sis got, it is very diffcult to get it healed fast!
but who did it happen?
GOD! =]
prayers work! trust God! prayers really works! i can be the witness! hehe :) and so you too!
just so amused!

p/s: SPARKLES SPARKS UP MY LIFE! :)

oh ya! exams is coming soon for many! take care and drink more water and trust in God in everything! :)
today is saturday! excited! :) hehe!

2005-09-28T17:50:00.000+08:00

heh everyone! old or young! churchies or classicmates!
i wanna to say

THANK YOU!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!
YA JUST MADE ME SO BLESSED AND LOVE :)

yup! ya guys indeed make me feel so touch and lovely!

thanks eugenia, xiao shi, jie ning, joys, mei yee for buying dark chocos on sunday! i haven touch yet! :D waiting to have an opportunity to share to all! :D

thanks cui, may, vincent, fahmi, justin, cun ye and khairul for ya lovely pokey packages! ya guys made me so vintage! haha.. so retro and oldies! thanks for the time ya guys spent yesterday after school just to get the perfect one for me! i will treasure it for sure! :D

thanks norman for being the sweetest pa i ever had! ya really made me laugh out loud.. :)

thanks mei yan and sandy.. ya made me so pretty today! haha.. thanks for ya big paper rose and a surprise hidding inside! haha.. and the beautiful ballerina card! thanks! my mum was astonished!

thanks kenneth, yang jun and lewis for making my day wonderfully sweet! feel like a princess for that day! yup!

thanks for all my sweestest classmates for making my day like a princess in class! i am speechless but i am fortunate to know great guys like you! 5-1 remains forever yeah! :)

thanks for everyone sending their blessing to me! and nevertheless my dearest creator, GOD, i love ya! :)
a year older is a new experience of things and a step of maturity!
i am ready, GOD! :)

ssss

2005-09-23T11:54:00.000+08:00

today is my last paper for prelims!
thank God that ya have accompany through times over times with me :)
saw churchies blog always remind me of how God has bless YOUTH IMPACT as well as EVERY CELL!
reminds me how YI has grow, how every members is passionate to grow in christ!
this has deeply inspire me to wanting to grow even more!
i think this is the attitude all of us should have.. arent we? ;p
like ACTS, NISSI 3, ZEALOT etc... :)
so glad!!!
congrates to the current three cells i noe that has expand! :D
but we shld keep working and working for God!
hope my cell has this spirit of hardworking too! :)
prayer is essential in every faithful christians! i will pray...

nevertheless, thanks for everyone concern towards me!
i feel blessed!
thanks! :)
and HOly spirit too! :D

oh ya! do i have a yellow colour look? tell me pls! thanks.. =

sssssss

2005-09-15T18:16:00.000+08:00

WOWOW WOWOW WOWOWOW~
here to have my last entry for the day before i head to BOOKS!
i love books! haha :)
heh! heh heh!
been great these few days i mean always!
HOLY SPIRIT IS THE ONE THAT LIFTS ME HIGH WITH JOY!
even though these few days i have unwanted gossips from others..
it will NEVER AFFECT ME LA!
haha..
gossips are unwanted news created by nosy people to GAIN ATTENTION!
they just want attention tt why they create 'NEWS' to spread...
I JUST DETEST HYPOCRITES :)
but i will still LoVe them... :)
anyway i will keep those people who gossip abt me in my prayers! :D

i smell books...
choazC!

swsddsa

2005-08-27T10:19:00.000+08:00

anyway feeling quite disappointed..

i really want to go to missions!
why stop me just because of money issue...

actually everyday putting up with fears in asking..
my sis asked, she can go but must be with the accompany of my mum
therefore she didnt make it..
me.. of cos is money!
i myself knows dad will be asking me about money....

speechless for this part...

went to one of my friends house yesterday
and i saw all these statues and so..
really breaks my heart...
why people putting HOPES on UNREAL gods
why?
i mean everyday i see all these statues around just tt it strikes me yesterday..
when i went back home.. praying and praying
something like prayer walk.. pray for every HDB flats i bypass, people i saw..
there is this undescribable feelings that i have to mention that i HATE satan so much
the anger is so huge that i really hope to shout out loud to tell people don believe in lies anymore and hope that they believe me in what i am saying..
ya might find it over [as you guys name it] but tt how i feel tt time..
really feel like doing jobs in what we did in thai to our locals..

to all christian and myself
please cherish your relationship with God.
is a blessing that we got to know Him, so share the LOVE with others too..
don take things for granted, just because HE is our father

sssss

2005-08-16T16:49:00.000+08:00

heh! i have a florist look :
mmmm... my classics said so..
but isnt a bad choice either!
i wont mind :)
selling flowers and evangelise
chit chat with those customers
and write Jesus love you on those scented God's creations
my shop will be name 'JESUS LOVE YOU' :D
how wonderful is that?

i will stop day dreaming :D

behave like a christian

2005-08-16T00:03:00.001+08:00

behave like a christian

9 let love be without hypocrisy. Abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good.
10 be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly love, in honor giving preference to one another
11 not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the LORD
12 rejocing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer
13 distributing to the needs of the saints, given to hospitality.
14bless those who persecute you, bless and do not curse.
15rejoice with those who rejoice and weep with those who weep
16 be on the same mind toward one another. Do not set your mind on high things but associate with the humble. do not be wise in your own opinion.
17 repay no one evil for evil. have regard for good things in the sight of all men.
18 if it is possible, as much as depends on you, live peaceably with all men.
19 Beloved, do not avenge yourselves but rather give place to wrath for it is writtin, " Vengeance is mine, I will repay," says the lord
20 " therefore if your enemy hungers, feed him; if he thirsts, give him a drink; For in so doing you will heap coals of fire on his head"
21 Do not overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

ROMANS 12

i love Romans 12:9-21
but upon reflecting
have i been behaving like a christian?
i have bold some in red due to i love these verses :]

anyway...i have learn something due to my low weeks
everyone one including pastor can be a prayer mate to me, an encourager, nevertheless my listening ear
but to deal with problems is only between me and God is Me, myself and I :]
heh!
i can only say
GOD is the best problem solver in the world!
in all things, it is HIM that we direct ourselves too.. :)
i just LOVE HIM
even though it is the toughest time i have been through
i just cant explain to you HOW GREAT THE FEELINGS ARE! :)

my first few weeks
been in daze of my own actions, nothing seem right, my connection with God is totally devastaed
hardly can i reach for HIm.. hard to trust HIM even.. the presence is mild or even never.. seems like a non-christian seeking for HIM! it is HIM! try to reach Him times and again.. am tired!

but yet been pondering.. heh! i don wan to be a betrayer for CHRIST! i don wan.. i don wan to be in hell even.. i want to be in heaven with God.. i want to see how He looks like.. i don not wan to deny HIM.. i was so hoping that end times do not come fast.. let me settle with God my problems first... ya..

until this early weeks.. been perking myself up.. trying to do quiet time and pray more often... rely on Him more and more..
nevertheless endless joy flow through me :)
i am glad God use me to help others!
and i hope this is not something that is fake! ya..
anyway was playing martyers with vivian tt time in bbq..
and i realise the feeling is very bad..
really very scary...
:
tt all i got to update

and i noe glutton is a sin but yet i experiencing it for like 6mths :(

behave like a christian

2005-08-16T00:03:00.000+08:00

s

2005-08-12T19:03:00.000+08:00

currently suffering from post-natal getting result symptons

p/s: not a glamourous result though. unexpected rating

but i still thank God for that...

haaaaaaa

2005-08-11T00:51:00.000+08:00

thank God for ya mercy upon these people :)

today having the most ultimate great day!
heard from dad that all the parents said the sinners prayer but not sure abt themselves yet
but still..
i thank God for the wonderful weather
the parents able to make it for this event
the great cooks and helpful Acts!
enjoy the fun fellowship and nevertheless the parents salvation! :)
three cheers for God! :D

mmm.. collecting result tommorow
heard from somone..
i have the lease confidence in my entire life
allow me to depend on YOU father!
i really desperately needed YOU to be in me!

sigh!
sign off

sssssss

2005-08-10T10:30:00.000+08:00

i love intimate chats with Jesus
i just love to express out from the bottom of my heart
how i really really feel..
the things i never shared to anyone before
and also the things i am doubtless about
i just speak it out
nevertheless praising HIM with songs
ease away my troubles
as if ya are composing a song but actually ya are just praying with what ya feel and just add tunes into it :)
ya will never noe how great ya can sing for God!

but i noe everything has not come to an end
deep inside my heart there is something rumbling!
it is definitly different from the past i experience
bad news for mr satan...
I STAND FOR CHRIST ALONE!
no matter how bad the damages are.. i noe my heart is being surrender to God

i really really hope end times come NOW
but i also don want
cos i want to see lost souls being save
and btw.. thank God that many of friends around me accepted christ
how O' mighty ya can be, JESUS!
:)

ssssss

2005-08-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

96 more days to Os level to be exact :)
i hope i can cope

1) less blogging
2) less tv
3) less of every leisure
4) more of fellowship
5) more of snl
6) more of bible
7) more of lost souls
8) more of YOU, my Father
9) more of praying
10) more of having a relationship with my Dad

this is not because my exams are coming tt why being hardworking for God..
cos i am afraid that when my exams drawing nearer and nearer
all e things that i serve for God will be diminish for tt moment
and most importantly, i don wan to dim the relationship with my Dad
i want Him to take over everything that i posses (seems to spell incorrectly)

currently, contacted some ppl.. please keep in prayer that they are able to come for snl and soften their hearts, pray against attack too.. thanks very much! :)

1) eileen 13 yrs old, greenridge.. accepted christ but mum wouldnt allow her to go out so late.. which is like 5pm.. hope that her mum would allow her cos she is asking her mum :)

2) wendy 15yrs old.. she still remember me..

3) kimberly, the gal i approach in my school last yr.. we still keep in contact.. thank God! :) hope that she would be able to go out late too..

ya.. tt about it currently..
still alot in e name list... :S
but heaven rejoice yeah! i mean angels! :D

choazC.. gt to study!

eya

2005-08-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

GOD!
save me! :(

please

2005-07-31T20:27:00.000+08:00

thank God for everything..
my heart will forver rejoice in everything he has given me..
no matter whatever circumstances i had to face
i thank Him for that..
who is He?

HE is my God and YOUR GOD, JESUS CHRIST!
*cheers and screams*

i have never regretted obeying His command
even though some is hard to accomplish
and quite anxious when He told ya too
but i noe in everything He asked me to do
something wonderfully will happened! :)
and it did

1st testimonial
on saturday, wan ping side, we guys did street E
and thank God that He is faithfully guiding us and helping every soul we are trying to share
rhoi has 8 ppl accepted christ
and total wan ping side has 24 ppl :)
*rejoice*
but i noe this has never be an end for rhoi
cos once, God has place in each of rhoian's heart that rhoi is more than a rhoi
i think adel, pinfen noes :)
once used to think about rhoi expands, who don wan cell to expand ya?
but dreaming does not help in giving that special power
is all abt fasting praying and sincerly wanting to save souls! :D

2nd testimonial
on saturday, 31july as well.. before street E was having conversation with one of my friend
XXX is a backsliden christian and we were chatting when XXX said XXX never being love
but being love when XXX is in relationship
i donnoe why.. i hardly ever communicate to that person
but something strong moving me to tell XXX about GOD,
trying to excape but think twice
i cant let any chance to slip, and how can i disobey my KING command
so i did share..
and to my surprise, XXX said XXX wanna to come to church and also bring XXX friends
but XXX said after Os..
but allow me to have this time to keep XXX in prayer!
i really hope XXX will be saved once again
cos during sec 1, i keep sharing to XXX and XXX became christian but ya... :)

okie la.. i noe ya all are wondering who is XXX..
XXX is a he and he is just my FRIEND, FRIEND!
no feelings arh! :)
cos i very scare ppl gossip i like this like tt when i didnt!
so innocently being accuse but there is nothing to be afraid of actually! :D

anyway.. below is another entry that i posted..
do see.. and i hope that group of ppl who i want to reach for God will see! :)

2005-07-31T20:24:00.000+08:00

find this entry very true indeed :) and it may clears others doubts through blogging? :D
thanks for syvester in contributing that entry in his blog

QN1. "if God loves us so much, why must He send us to hell? if we don;t believe in Him,
then He doesnt love us cos He will send us to hell right........?"

ANS: "yes no matter if u accept or not, God still loves U.how do we know? becos He already DIED ON THE CROSS FOR U. With Him on the Cross, THAT WAS ALL OF HUMANKIND'S 2ND CHANCE to go back to Him. and also remember, we ARE ALL SINNERS, WE cannot deny this.and we do not deserve to go to heaven, but God provided a way on the Cross. so how can we say that God does not love us? He did His part. its OUR turn now."

QN2. "Sorry ah, BUT i find it SOOOOOOOOOO hard to believe in SOMEONE or something i DO NOT see. so how can i believe in GOD whom i do not see?"

ANS: "but we all believe in ENERGY, which we do not see. we believe in AIR daily,we believe in heat, we believe in LOVE and TRUST for people which we do not see.we believe in HISTORY which we do not see wif our own eyes too. so why cant we believe in Jesus Christ who came to die on the Cross for us, and who love us and wants to take away our sins?"

QN3. "if God loves the world, He would not have caused so much wars,diseases,earthquakes,unhappiness,starvation etcetcetc..so how can HE be a God i must believe in?"

ANS: "easy easy..wars are created by men.Men's greed(which is SIN), miscommunications, hunger for POWER (greed).Diseases are becos of the DETEORIATION of our human body due to sins like sexual immorality, like pollution, contamination of our resources etcetc. Diseases are MAN-MADE and MAN-CAUSED too. Our human body has deteoriated since the FALL OF ADAM when sin came into the world.(Genesis 3).over time, as we sin, our body becomes weaker. it is proven also that ancient people live longer too, becos of fresher air, cleaner resources etc. Famines are human caused because of POOR agriculture. There are more earthquakes also becos there are MORE activities and movements going on underneath the earth due to RISING GLOBAL WARMING. and also MORE AND INCREASING NUMBER OF earthquakes are a sign sometimes to warn people that our Saviour will soon be back"

QN4. "Why must we believe in Jesus Christ? I can just be a good person and go to heaven!"

ANS: "Ya, as much as we are trying to be good, we still are a sinner, and we still sin.(from lying, to being rebellious, to lust and murder) and with sin,and all PEOPLE with COMMON SENSE know that we cannot enter into a Holy Place called heaven if we have sins. It is only by the GIFT OF GOD that we can enter heaven, becos we can NEVER achieve God's standard of holiness. Only GOD can help us to achieve that."

QN5. "I believe in God. but not the Christian way/Christian God."

ANS: "We do not believe in any religions or religious gods too. We believe in a TRUE God, Jesus Christ, and a true relationship with God Himself, and He is God of the UNIVERSE not god of any religion. We believe in a real God who answers our prayers, listens to us, makes a way for us to heaven, loves us by dying for us, comforts us etcetc. THE TERM CHRISTIANITY IS JUST A WAY FOR PEOPLE TO REGCONISE THE TRUE GOD."

and u take this chance to ask them back "so does the God you believe in listens to u and loves u that much?"

QN6. "My family are buddhists/taoists/catholics/watever. so im scared/worried/wan to obey parents/reluctant..(to accept Christ)"

ANS: "well, if today ur parents allow you TO be Christian, and that ur parents are christians, would you want? and would you GLADLY accept this Loving God?"

ssssssss

2005-07-28T20:27:00.000+08:00

i can really tell you i like my secondary school life
i thank God that really He has the BEST for me
if not He wouldnt place me in such a wonderful class :)

mmm.. having silly fun together again
and is not just today but everyday! :D
especially with funny willy marie, xiu hong, peng, bao, esther, jo
haha..
today at physics lab
supposing to be doing practical
marie cant stand me cos i will keep on laughing
so she send herself to be with someone as a partner
and throw me to another partner
burp!
but okie.. after practical we have remaining time in the lab
(there is only a few of us in the other lab)
so we played star wars :) we wooden long rulers as 'laser sword'
i am the victim being chase around in two labs
haha.. that is so silly of us
but it brings me memories indeed :)

actors and actresses includes me, marie, yang jun, lewis, cun ye, xiu hong :D

thanks for the fun and laughter and i noe there is more crazy acts coming up

nevertheless, i miss churchies too :)

sss

2005-07-27T23:42:00.000+08:00

your actions reflects all..

i am glad that my trust for somes has been sharpen through experiences
trust you time and again
but yet your actions revealed all..
those who are bright noes,
those being blinded is the beauty that is being presented
is needless for me to say
cos you turn deaf ears
time and again, your movement are trail
whats your motive afterall?
little things you done, holds guilt in me for nothing
only God noes what happening
and only God noes how i feel
i made the right move and is much carefree now
friends noes and glads i did it
i regretted not listening to their advice in the first place :)

please, don allow me to hold any resentment :)

2005-07-27T17:55:00.000+08:00

today has been great
just that so many things happened..
but nevertheless it wouldnt affect my mood to celebrate MR ZAHED BIRTHDAY!
he is my form teacher and wow!
we had like half-day school due to after recess, the other subjects teachers allows us to prepapre the surprise for our birthday MAN! :)

his present is a photo mosaic
his cake is HUGE! and definitly worth of the price
his crown is COLOURFUL, mainly contain pink and green :D ops!
his mini-version cake is fake but is beautiful and is last-minute idea!
his 10 roses is fabulous and is as real!

i guess all teachers are proud? hehe
i donnoe but heard from mr zahed's testimonial he requested for our class which is a HOT ITEM among staffs.. :)
and i love all my teachers!

so during the celebration, a group of happy birthday dance team dance for this king (he is married) and i guess we enjoy dancing! something to notice.. our guys are so co-operative for the FIRST TIME! cos they DANCE! :) esp mr brother! after that we played musical chair.. it may sound silly but is fun! the whole class is walking around in the resource room! haha.. and all 'OUTS' have to do 'four-feet' and definitly show the funny side of them!

I LOVE YOU CLASSICS!

nevertheless, handsome cher also promise to treats us PIZZA! slurp! peng must really come this time.. she cant miss anything out! :)

after that, went for chemistry practical.. i can say this time is the BESt practical i done so far.. having great fun with marie, kenneth and lewis.. :) thanks GUYS! i bet those cocktails really made us drunk! hahaxx.. i love those colours when chemicals mixed! they are so beautiful!

even though many things happened this week but i noe God place something in my heart.
He placed JOY in me!
and i noe He has been hinting me and making me to be a humble person
and just like pin fen said..
He hit you real hard when you ask Him to make you a humble person
and nevertheless, i learnt that how God given us wisdom to put in use too! :)

I LOVE YOU, FATHER! :)

nnnnn

2005-07-24T17:33:00.000+08:00

cafe is great today!
thank God for the business we had today!
thank God for the sales and everyone who is doing! :)
but
eversince from yesterday alter-call
i never feel right for the whole day
please do keep me in prayer.. thanks :)
been thinking and asking God.. what wrong?
izzit spiritual attack that i didnt notice for the past week..
actually upon asking and thinking..
i realise i do have for that one week of fasting..
but is not food temptation..
satan always noe what is my forte and whats not
but God is in control of everything :)
alot of things happened this week but shall not elaborate futher..
now i just wanna to get things right with God, it made me so confused actually and also to save the lost souls out there!
:D

ssssssss

2005-07-23T11:02:00.000+08:00

blog hopping just now and came across this entry that feel contridicting la..
it like that

i am bloody hell happy today!

erps! :/ actually i am not shock la.. nothing to shock abt but feel weird leh
how come hell can be so fun that makes he/she so happy esp hell is bloody..
hahaha.. trying to make some perpections (correct my english)

it is so poorish! (haha.. i noe there is no such tense) :D

in conclusion::::::

saturday has come.. *flying kiss*
snl is here *claps*
fellowship is not a one time activites *claps*
praising God is never a saturday but EVERYDAy! *screams AWESOME!* :)

i thank GOD for this week making my week awesome and with joy everyday! and is never a week thingy.. it happens everyday! :D even though i done silly mistakes.. thank God that ya forgive my sins and allow me to live on with YOU YOU YOU! :)nevertheless, i thank GOd for the strength and wisdom ya have provided for me! most importantly i thank God that He allow me to wake up (means alive) to do His will! (even though i also thought of quickly leave this place but i noe i hasnt finish my task!) i thank God for everything and everyday He had provided! amen!

i noe God hears my prayers
so...

prayer list

XXXXXXXxXXxxxXXX
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
XXXXXXXXXXXXxXX etc ( it is meant to be confidential!)

will not go forsaken! :D

looking forward MORE MORE MORE what HE has for me today!

subday

2005-07-17T22:44:00.000+08:00

Our God is an awesome God!

yesterday snl is terrific! :)
the preaching is good by rixiang!
it touches deep in my heart indeed..
to share..
the past week i experience and sadly to say i am like an 'almost dead christians'
i myself noe too and i noe how it feels like drifted apart from God..
experience twice and is TERRIBLE!
thanks pastor daniel for always pull me back on track and clear those thoughts on what i am thinking.. it freaks me up thinking what happen! arh!!!!
therefore i told myself NEVER EVER DRIFT APART FROM GOD even though i noe i am falling back..
i must get straight immediately.. reflecting upon what is hindering and seriously seek God for forgiveness and 'tink!' next moment ya have to really be committed in wat ya want to do for God..
and thank God.. He never forsake me! :)
and learn lots of things through this experience..

Holy spirit is like an alarm clock and more than an alarm clock. HE rings ya when something is not right or something is wonderfully going to happen, definitly ya will noe :)... but the choice is yours!
either ya ACCEPT AND DO SMTH OR ya DECLARE AND FEEL GUILTY [i feel guilty :)]

place God above all things
yes! i realise all the things we do is a task from God but excluding things that are not in favour of God.. we serve HIM each day of our life with the committment we are given.. He is like a teacher, a boss so i cant image that we place our work that He gives above HIM, and if He wants us to do smth and we just ignore and continue to finish the task by the deadline He given .. just like your teacher ask ya to come to the front but ya don want and just want to finish his/her homework.. erps! an act of inobedience?!

i donnoe why i would write so much cos i am so touch that everyday of our life is by God's grace that we live on and i will feel guilty that he give me so much yet i return him so minimum which i wouldnt want! :)

yup! looking forward to 23 and 30! esp 30! :) yeah!

sssss

2005-07-16T10:11:00.000+08:00

this week isnt terrific
but i thank God that He still set joy in me :)
feel like having my own space and reflecting upon it..
the previous two entry is the better nothing to do entry..
but i donnoe...
i have weird dreams and weird happenings..
feel like sharing but worried it will turn into gossip..[some things can really turn into gossips btw]
i would rather share it to God or some of my close friends..:)
mmmm.. ya..
reflecting upon my past, the things i do, i have grow indeed...
quite amazed yet feeling okie
cos i noe there is more to come for God to mould me to be christ-like :)
virtutous woman is a great book but i noe my learning just don end here..
fellow brothers and sisters, intro me some books can? thanks!
the starting of the yr, i already promise myself and God that i will HIM before all things..
i thank HIM for giving me this strength even temptation has come by..
i stand by what i promise God and i mean it! :)
He always remind me and allow me to go through it..
i feel satisfied knowning God wants me to fulfill what i promise to HIM :)
i donnoe why. I just love HIM so much
i am just amazed how much i grow :)

i Love you, Father.
you are the one that set me apart from the world and realise how much this world needs US to share about YOU!
and i am doing it today! at last! :)
God bless corban and rhoi today for street E, lets us be FEARLESS and approchable!
thank You, Father!

tic tac

2005-07-14T13:01:00.000+08:00

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You are outgoing and optomistic. You always try to
find the bright spot in everything. You are
energetic and people are naturally attracted to
you. However, you are not always sure of what
your purpose or goals are.
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sssss

2005-07-13T21:17:00.000+08:00

completely cant concentrate for math!
feeling low low and super low..
my week is terrible..
you pull me down and left me guilt

God,
pull me away from tt temptation island
let me come back to you!
the world is not for me, i want the high place with praises of your name!
father,
please don leave me behind :(

burp

2005-07-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

family working together to help me find how to pronouce a chinese word..
haha..
very hard working but i slack cos my mind is freezing! :D
and after 15 minutes of calling their friends to ask but none knew it
my wise tiff (not my second but younger) flip the back of the book and say..
here got the han yu pin yin!
burp! :|

mmm.. i have no right to judge what i am trying to say..
but i feel that we should encourage and not pull ppl down by gossiping things or even twist stories that doesnt even exist and worst! say mean words on people especially don even noe that person character well..
thank God that adel, drey and pin fen hit me back on what happened if not i wouldnt even bother to care or voice it out! :)
no worries, didnt bear grudges against that.. :)

thank God for that.. if not haha.. the past steff will really be like a mad cow...
mmm.. but i think nevetheless it is wise not to ever dig out people past to gossip unless ya have the permission in the presence of the person to prevent misunderstanding! yes! but best not too.. :) and really twist stories while gossip can really hidden someone walk with God..
pull people's faith down..

do ya consider a muderer (forgot the spelling.. ops! correct me please) to people's spiritual life, if that person is weak in faith?

best of all, never waste time on such useless and harmful activites.. use time for evangelism and best! haha.. fellowshipping and study the word of God.. :)
ops! i always place those before the priority to studies..
but God allow me to manage my time well! :)

and seek wisdom from Him, we need that to progress! :D

time to populate heaven and plunder hell!!!!

burp!

2005-07-09T13:02:00.000+08:00

my freedom enjoyable time is here.. HERE!
but i am moodless for 2 saturdays..

mood swing?
no way! it cant be :D

guess i am really very tired..
suppose to study now..
but just don feel like it..
maybe will buck up extra hard at nite! :)
aye captain steff!
YES! you can! :)

been hanging out less with my dearest churchies..
miss them alot
simply lost connection?
it cant be...
but as i say.. i donnoe why i don have the extra strength to approach them..
Dad! i am tired!
but i am really joyful this week.. high high and high!
friends took me insane?
hahaxx..

i miss chalet
i miss thailand
i miss YI camp
i miss holidays
i miss chilling
i miss screaming and dancing that stupid retard dance..
haha
i don miss that dance but i miss that FUN! i mean the coin game..
missing missing missing..
didnt i get the chance to see ya later :)
tt great!

hsssssss

2005-07-08T19:16:00.000+08:00

high high into the sky! :/ erps!

overall, my week is totally AWESOME! :)
beside test and test and math test and hw.. mmmm
i love me mates.. :)

i realise i have to be STRONG
DEFENDING MY NATION, MYSELF! haha
cos i have been abuse/bully badly by one two three four five countless mates..
poor child.. sigh!

haha.. burp!
awesome people like me need no worries!
i have the 'stop child abuse society' :) and nevertheless my almighty God!
erps! getting out of point..

watch WARS OF THE WORLDS
awesome show?! i think so..
i like tom cruise movies..
the way he act out..
but of all.. his show is great..
the alien, the scene..
all of ya should check it out! :)
okie.. losing concentration..
update next time!

good news..
saturday is here!

dddd

2005-07-06T23:17:00.000+08:00

feeling burp rite now..
don understand what the worldly people are doing..
my worldly definition is materialistic, not focusing on God mainly but placing all hopes and attention into the world.

i place my will in HIM alone :)

have to say that recently i met a bunch of 'same of a kind' guyS
no worries.. i am neither interested..
but they just freak me up!
if ya a guy and reading it.. it might not be you..
cos they don have my blog for what i noe.. :)
they freak me up!
the whole point is not about crush or whatever ya name it
but they just donnoe what they are doing in fact!
met some weird incident tt why i said that..
and today once again..
not just guys i think too..

God, don keep me astray for i noe you will not lead me to temptation beyond what i can bear :)
glad i master with ya strength and wisdom! :)

anyway those things wont kept me thinking..
stand aside please i shall say :)

i made the right choice! *screaming and laughing*
erps.. maybe in this part ya wont get what i mean.. :)
hehe.. meant to be a secret code i guess..

anyway.. is there such spirit call spirit of attraction.. and i mean ATTRACTION TO OPPOSITE GENDER :)

to me i think there is.. but lets hear each other point of view please! :) thanks

cccc

2005-07-05T14:50:00.001+08:00

sorry HuIShan :(
this is not to be created to attract any attention..
this is dedicated to my huishan...
sorry that i didnt make it to anything that ya ask me too..
always last minute cancel our things...
sorry..
will not do it again.. yes!
sms me when ya see this or just tag k.. :)

---------------------------------------------------------------------

i guess there is somethings for us to learn each time we meet problems..
and i learn to face it and be brave
and nevertheless to seek my NUMBER 1 for helps!
i have always dedicate by writing thanks to people in my blog..
but now..
i wanna to..
i wanna...
wanna..
wanna....
say...

I LOVE YOU, CHURCHIES! :)
all of you have place something for my growth each time we gather or not..
and i love you for being so understanding always and be in my nutritions diet..

actually...
please love ya family too
cos
cos cos

I LOVE MY FAMILY TOO :)
have to say i am proud to a nice and comfy family..
everything has change eversince we came to this church
and my views towards everyone have change and realise..
i really have an awesome daddy and mummy!
hope my dad see it.. haha..
cos he has my blog.. ya never noe... mmmm.. i mean he has it but reading it i donnoe le
cos on this saturday nite i realise how much that God has provided him in my life..
very proud for what they gone through and provide for my sisters and I..
mmmm... still got my sisters..
have to admit they are the BEST!
even though agruements is expected sometimes esp four gals...
but God allow me to learn what is patience and able to show love... heh! :)

I LOVE MY SIX PRINCESSES
they are the adorable sweet and awesome one... even though someone always BULLIES.. heh!
bao, marie, peng, esther, jo, grace
i cant wait tmr to come.. woah!

oh oh yeahee! :) three days to strive on!

cccc

2005-07-05T14:50:00.000+08:00

hhhhhhhh

2005-06-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

1 day to lovely weekends! :) *rejoice*
burp! i love to burp :) cos i don BURP in reality or hardly
actually this yr pass very fast.. let me tell ya is FAST
sigh! 10 more weeks to prelim doesnt sound nice..
but i thank God that i feel good not going msn anyway.. :) *rejoice*
i just go to the net browse blog and go all sorts of programme and ya..
as adelene said sitting on the com for a long period is terrible..
cos i exprience that and i am going to experience it once again.. :(
due to once upon a time, my laptop (shared with tiff) was spilled with water and realise all my fnn doc are GONE!
no disks! NONE!
so.... hope that i don have lots of correction to do..
but i noe from teacher response that our project cant reach an A...
huh!!!??? * tt my terrifying response*
okie.. skip that.. :)

thursday is wonderful ar!
joyful is me, me is joyful :D
yeah!
cant do cafe duty this week, i guess cos got cell grp...
anyway...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS MARIE!
I LOVE YOU! :D

truly has an enjoyable time yesterday with princesses..
peng, bao, esther, jo and grace ;)
i shall write here what my princess said :)

[steffie...
my pretty and adorable princess.. yes you trick me by talking really loudly about celebrating it on Monday instead.. you got me really bad.. haha.. jokes aside.. You are really a special friend Jesus has placed in my life. i admire the way you are on fire for God.. You are a true encouragement to me.. yup yup.. i love your bimboticness and all your silly conversations.. hehe.. lastly, really thanked you for today.. Huggies...]

i am really touched by what she said.. even while typing it out.. i just cant describe that she has been a wonderful pal in school that gave me good advice and we have a common goal too :)
other than she.. who is a true encouragment to me too.. peng, bao, esther, jo has always encourage me too.. :) and we have our silly games and conversations and pic and videos.. erps!

other than them.. my other good peeps like may, cui, xui and many many more has always treat me well like a princess.. hahaxx.. feel so funny and weird why suddenly we played princessy in class and the teachers noe too.. we are NOT childish just thats how youth have fun.. :) and also very glad that cui they all always plan birthday party for me me ME!
see how lucky am i to have such good friends in my school :D i thank God that my classmates are a bunch of friendly people.. :) we live in peace and harmony!

thanks my classicmates!!! :D
YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE, MY ONLY SUNSHINE! (tag me if ya see this :) )

nevertheless, i miss chalets and all the funs
my cry for my friends has never end ( guess my brothers and sisters noe :) )
God show me your way, don wan to end here!

btttttt

2005-06-29T19:15:00.000+08:00

1 week , 3rd day :D
school has been tiring and yet enjoyable
been studying studying and studying..
actually i love studying just that don push me with much much stress..
a little will do.. and tt will be ppppeeerrrfffeecctt :D

heard from my second sis that her friend in army died due to a 5km run..
it sound impossible but true enough to believe
another friend died due to the motorcycle and the bus accident but is this yr
another is a swimming instructor died when teaching swimming...
it sound freaky but i can tell excessive exercise can harm too.. :)
this world is so freaky but i am not scare cos Jesus lives in me :D
but just shocked that an army guy died from 5km run.. :/

will update more.. not in blogging mood

nn

2005-06-27T18:58:00.000+08:00

my first day of school is perfect?
realise i need to mug from now on..
time is limited for me Me ME!!!
awh!!! this is bad but i noe with God everything will go right

cafe duty is great!
i love doing cafe work..
it don seem tiring to me and is full of fun and enjoyment
just that ya feel stress when sales not heading well or ya done smth not right
overall, have to conclude that teamwork is great and everyone is committed to do more than their part
am i right to say that? *pat on the shoulder*
haha.. first time doing kitchen work is great
overall having lots of fun
i love the tagging part..
* ONE CHICKEN CULET*
*ONE MILO ICE*
*ONE PORRIDGE*
hahahhahaxx.. everyone is just working working working and having fun..

afterthat went to suntec.. sorry tiffany
den went to have chat with weiwei and huijin at delifrance..
got to noe both of them better and really have a heart chat yeah!
but very tired so head home quite early..

HAPPY BAPTISM PEI XIA!!!! :D

hhhhhhh

2005-06-25T02:23:00.000+08:00

God,
is my time up?
whats my destiny?
is it tt one that i have been passionate for?
should i take the step of faith to ask or wait?

i donnoe really
guide me please, Father..
i really donnoe...
what ya said to me is from ya or someone else?
i don like making guesses
but i am willing to wait at all means till the time is up :)

i suddenly like this word 'DESPERATE'
it has its good and bad
but for me is good..

i am DESPERATE to share
i am DESPERATE to noe God even more
i am DESPERATE to noe what my will
i am DESPERATE to serve HIM
i am DESPERATE to dance for HIM

i am indeed a desperate freak for HIM
just HIM and no one else! :)

i really wanna to dance for Him.....

nnnnnnnnnnnn

2005-06-22T11:19:00.000+08:00

THANKS EVERYONE FOR YOUR PRAYERS!!!! :D
i have recover at last AT LAST!!!
at least from that sickening fever and bad headache
PRAYERS ARE THE BEST MEDICINE!

this is my second time being so sick
believe it or not :) [eg: having fever, headache and cough, sore throat = 4 in 1]
i was actually someone that hope to be sick when i see someone sick...
call me a freak! ops!
cos i just hardly those type of ppl who hardly get sick
but learnt it...

-panadol doesnt help really... panadol extra helps more in headache...
-honey really sooth you down when ya are sick
-vitamin C drink is essential when ya sick
-chocolates helps when ya sick.. OPS! [don follow me...please! :)]
-sleep needed

I NEVER EVER WANT TO GET SICK ANYMORE!!!
disgusting! :/

update on conference:
SOUL REVOLUTION is indeed great, equip us with the skills and also refresh and warn us that we, christians are the soul winners for the lost souls.... so we MUST do our part!
evangelise and most importantly.. PRAY and PUSH yourself!!!!
always do with a willing heart too, don do it for the sake of you have to do it...
it doesnt favour God in anyway... :)
evangelise has always been on my mind eversince after the conference..
I thank God for that! :D
but thinking without actions is USELESS too!
start working labourers!!!! :)
lets work hard and BE PROUD THAT WE ARE WORKING FOR OUR BIG BOSS! :)
esp He is kind to us and save us from our dreadful sin once

one issue that i am feeling discomfort about it :)

YOU shall not misuse the name of the Lord your God, for the Lord will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses his name [Exodus 20:7]

[trying to hold some justice to my, as well as my brothers and sisters's God]

God is not referring to the universal gods [neither anyone ones]
it refers to ONE AND ONLY that created the earth and send His son, Jesus to die on the cross for our sin and the ONLY TRUE GOD that have a relationship with us... :)
christianity is not a religion but a relationship and believing :)

i may sound angry but not those angry... cos i see the how the world mocks on jesus with names and even my surrounding.. tt why i wrote it...
not to self-personal shoots but telling what i am trying to say...

anyway, feeling so heavy in the things i wrote.. how to lighten it... erps!!!! :/
SOS!

xxxxxxxxxx

2005-06-16T13:43:00.000+08:00

as DREY, AUDREY XIE XXXX XXXX (donnoe her chinese name but zhao xian is adel name rite?) i wrote it in black before highlighting in WHITE!! hohoho :) supposing not going into details but wanna to show how much i LOVE drey but she still keep BULLYING me :(

but nevertheless i LOVE all the GALS!!!! in our church too!!!! :D hurrAY!
have to disclaim first...
[i am not a lesbo :) ]
hey, i am proud to be in COSBT, YOUTH IMPACT!
you noe noe noe noe noe noe noe noe noe noe!!!! :D
i am also proud that all the girls are pretty too cos we got GOD love in US!
one of the best ingredient i ever realise!!!!!
disclaim: if anyone reads and wants to go to church :D, ya are glad to tag me :) but PLEASE don go for the WRONG PURPOSE :D

no more shopping for steff anymore... :(
shopping will resume after YI camp cos she NEEDS to STUDY (donnoe who invent this word)
anyway for those who worried SHARKS! she is going to wear the same things for half a year..
no worries :) have well-prepared myself.. hohoho :D and if i am in a bad state... nvm.. i have rags to wear... erps!!!!!!! :?

i think i am talking craps cos i am EXCITED cos there is a CONFERENCE STARTING FROM TODAY!!! :D

feel that the world is so boring, nothing to do.. been imaging that if i don go church on sat and sun.. what will i do???
*burps!!*

in conclusion, I AM PROUD TO NOE GOD AND BE IN COSBT, YOUTH IMPACT TO SERVE HIM AND NEVERTHELESS LOVE MY CHURCHIES A MILLION BITS! :D
*she is posing a wonderwoman pose and grins to everyone :) *

the end!

missing

2005-06-13T23:30:00.000+08:00

i am MISSING CHURCHIES already :)

today consider a short day for me..
so i slept till twelve plus..
burp!!!
staying at home and actually supposing to study
but... :)

friday, saturday and sunday gave me indeed a wonderful memories
hanging out with my dearest churchies is FUN FUN FUN!
hey, thats the uniqueness is us as we STAND FOR A PURPOSES, SOMEONE WHOM WE BELIEVE IN!!! :D
very happy that all of us are so devoted and committed to God, abides in His rules and follow what He wants us to do..

YEAH!!!! cant wait for thursday to come :D

hey peeps... pray for pastor daniel too..
got a sms that says he is sick yup... :)

guess that all... looking forward to tmr :D

ssssss

2005-06-12T21:33:00.000+08:00

wonder me becoming wonderous me eventually

yesterday snl, God presence was indeed powerful
i hope i don take that for granted for once or twice..
cos if i did tt, it will never happen
let me be humble and faithful, God :)

i donnoe whether am i really knowing what God wants me to do..
kind of doubt it.. cos what He show me seems impossible..
indeed His way are weird to us but might not be when it is happening..

from YI camp 04 till yesterday.. HE really shows me where i am heading towards and i hope i am not dreaming to myself..

Father, is there anywhere else in my life that my life that i have not given up or share with You?

i noe what it means at last [HEART BREAKING]
it truly breaks my heart that lost souls are not saved
breaks my heart when i see my fellow brothers and sisters in an unwanted circumstances [those bad kind i mean]
breaks my heart when i cant do any much help to those i loved
breaks my heart when i didnt do my best for God and i noe He is too

tt what i called heart breaking [in my own dic]
but guess there is more definition to it too

i thank God for rhoi members in my life...
want to noe what is GIRLS POWER?
see RHOI RHOI RHOI!!!

I love you, Father

mmmmmmmmm

2005-06-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

mid-night feast

yep.. feeling terribly hungry out of sudden
even though i have a good meals today..

7 packets cheese biscuits
few slices gurva
1 mochi ice-cream
1 bowl peppermint ice-cream

argh!!! terrible is me who DONNOE how to control
no mores such stuff happening please, my steff
ya have a tummy which just doesnt fit well anywhere...
not trying to feel inferior..
but look at my past photos.. its really a tremondusly growth..
who to blame? myself

okie.. today is very FUN!!!! :)
yeah!!!!!!!
with a group of interesting fun people!!!
i love you all!!!!
its been long eversince i hang out with churchies
yeah!!!!
i wanna to hang out MORE
heard me??? hehehe

weird

2005-06-09T14:42:00.001+08:00

it is being not said that weird people do have weird dreams...
i have weird dreams for past two days..

yesterday dreams........

[Hip HIp hurray!!!! we are the cheering leading teams in nee ann poly!!! yeah!!!!! (why nee ann?) now we are going to teach you how to be the best cheer leaders!!! ready!!! yeah!!!!]

i am a secondary student prepared to join in... errrr.. enthu me :)
altogether there are 100 over people and the best of the worst is they are climbing over each other to form the highest slide.. all people are slanted and there is only one pole to hold on.. burp! jump here.. spin here... skip there and here and last pose FLIP and wave ya hands high and give ya nicest BIG smile :D

today dreams....

amazing race...
this are ya obstacles yeah!
ready, get set, GO!!! beep beep beep!!!
donnoe why everything turn into a fun fair and den those army type..
run here and there..
no one complain..
but give that serious and laughing look...
nice game yeah..

when i woke up..
thought today is friday..
i say sharks! i am late!
den i sleep again..
den realise OH MY GOSH!!!! TODAY IS SATURDAY!!!
den i went back to sleep again...
NO NO NO!!! is wednesday la..
but kept thinking.. how can my week be so slow..
den to realise.. today is thursday...

PERFECCCCCTTTTT :)

weird

2005-06-09T14:42:00.000+08:00

sleppe

2005-06-08T22:19:00.000+08:00

mummy mummy mummy mummy
wo ai ni
daddy daddy daddy daddy
zhen wan xi
but i love daddy too :)

they are very caring to my health and me
and thanks to my girlies who care for me too
many many many lovies thanks

where is the love?
the love is in GOD
that why GOD IS LOVE :)

went out today and really hopes to go out with my churchies..
i miss them.. terribly :(
guess that all...
God bless and loves ya pals...
for those i noe and donnoe.. :)

wedges is calling me!!!

bored

2005-06-07T20:05:00.000+08:00

i am super duper bored..

lust of eyes
pride of life
lust of flesh

yeah! been binging and still very concern about ya..
girls main concern..
mum say my health very poor...
keep eating rubbish!!!
but my house really consist of non-healthy food and i always stay at home..
so i eat those and get ***
my mind is confuse at the moment..
someone say i will get anaroxi.. (donnoe how to spell)
hey.. please don anyhow say k
when ya never saw me eating don say i never eat..
i just didnt eat meals but snack more oftenly..
i hate to act.. just to say...
really sick of eating now..
give me a break and let me be back to my own past healthy life without any restriction pls..

feeling really down at the moment...
but i cant scream, shout, throw trautments..
GOd, i need you

amazing race

2005-06-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

i love amazing race :)

today's game i love it not mainly about the team winning but our team members..
if i will to say..
this is my first time ever been in a team so close together
everyone just joke, laugh, run, solve clues
team unity is great..
and our team leader too :)

TEAM 24 : adelene, pei xia, guo yi, daniel, leong, choy, vincent, jeremey, norman, bao chun, xiu ting and ME!!! :D

haha.. jus so much laughter and jokes... one slighest thing, we can joke till so funny..
burp!
and i am amaze our ice break quite fast
in a split seconds.. like we met den we just joke and chit chat..
quite tiring but everyone just tried their best in running..
great jobs guys!!!! :D
and really enjoyed myself alot..

can we have again, pastor daniel and committee?
more running!!!! :D
as if i can tahan.. errrrr....
but great thanks to YOU ALL!!!!!

been praying and praying and praying
hope that my friends will accept christ..
but i now quite confuse..

dinner was great too.. and
nevertheless.. chatted with vincent and norman on the way back..
keep talking about EVERY DETAILS about our amazing race team..
hahaxx.. lots of laughter.. excitement!!!

but i am so excited meh?
don think i am over-reacted rite?
:D

i love team 24 and today events!
thank GOD, our prayers had been heard by HIM..
He indeed loves us so much...
anyone get what i mean???

xxxxxxxxxxx

2005-06-02T17:09:00.000+08:00

burp! even though i feel tired but i am not tired :D
looking forward to amazing race each day..

ready, get set, BEEP!!
adelene and hui jin and pei xia are in nee ann giving out leaflets.. :D
i am supporting by praying..
have to take care of my dearest sis..
many things happened this week...
i could say nothing good but God made it good for me not to dwell into those things..
and...
adelene bought me and xia maozhedong cap..
yeah!! we DON support maozhedong
we support God by wearing maozhedong cap! :D
hahaxx.. doesnt make sense la!

i love praying lots..
even when ya are tired, prayer makes ya even awake and ya just wanna to PRAY more..
yeah!
:D

all my sisters and brothers! let pray MORE! ;)
prayers works wonders!

sssssssss

2005-06-01T08:59:00.000+08:00

God save the day! :D

i am cheery today..
cos i manage to print out the forms..
thank God.. :)
another obstacle is to how to answer my friend abt my another friend whom is a malay..
so....
update ya later.. :)

sss

2005-06-01T02:01:00.000+08:00

God, grant me wisdom and strength.

i am in my dead state now..
my printer cant work and i found no one to help me to print my amazing race forms for my friend..
just came back from some family personal stuff..
2 downs in a year..
thank God that granny still able to hang on to the fact of what happened..
thanks grandma for being so helpful to us..
kisses for her :)

something quite bad happened..
there is this uncle of mine seem to doubt christianity
just now was debating with mum and me..
talking all sorts and seem to sound as if he knows the bible clearly
not trying to say i noe much of the bible
but the situtation is like tt at tt time..
trying to do my best but i dont wan to offend and be a bad testimonial..
decided to keep my mouth shut..
cos i think i said something wrong.. and tt wrong might misunderstood ppl..
anyway i cant take it at tt time, worry that i will flare up..
ask my mum what is his religion...
but to our realisation is a mix and match religion thing..
haiz...
anyway...

God, allow me to stand firm in my faith..

ssssssss

2005-05-30T18:50:00.000+08:00

becoming the virtuous lady
its difficult i shall say but nevertheless i am striving to do tt..
no matter how hard it is..
if anyone watch desperate housewife..
there is this housewife tt is like a robot but if she is a christian and with a pure mind
guess i consider her as one V.L
but anyway is JUST a show.. :D

talk about chinese today..
felt terrible.. yep... paper 1 had been a disater to me..
didnt complete my compo
paper 2 i donnoe what wrong too..
felt so drain and worse just cant concentrate..

BUT IN ALL THINGS I THANK HIM TO ALLOW ME TO GO THROUGH IT :D
no worries.. i feel alright and His joy spure me up to work harder

read someone testi and quite interrupted
no worries.. if ya read this..
it is not you :D
in the sense i donnoe whats the person doing..
sigh! but tt not my problem afterall
is between them :D

amazing race to be an amazing grace to people life..
wont that be great??? ;)

thankful to:

pin fen: i noe you wont read my blog.. but i want to tell others that she is the best yep! :) i am truly amaze that she can able to handle so many things well and still stay steadfast in the lord :)

adelene: she the sweetest gal i met too.. haha.. remind of the past it really can be jokey of wat we done and been through too :) but i also learnt something from her too

pei xia: this girlie really touched my life in many ways too.. and she can be a joker :D jojojo

tiffany: this girl really has a lot of amazing stories abt her life and allow me to learn someting too.. always felt like a little girl when i am with her.. even though i am older :D haha.. at last i admit i am old in someways.. ops!

vivian: this girl even though she is serving in GB.. but i really can see the growth in her.. indeed trememdously.. yeah! :D she is always been so swweeeettt to me even though also got bad times but conflicts are passing point.. don ya? :D hoho.. ya want the good treatment?

nana: nana~~~ she is one that i enjoyed most.. i miss those times with her and she always guide me through and always noe what wrong with me even i don say.. haha.. i thank GOD for her.. :D and missing her too

liang zhi: the guy hasnt been chatting with him for so long.. ha.. but i enjoy those good ol funny times with him too.. yeah! souled out and those outing.. and he has guide me through too when i am down or really doubtless.. thank God for him :D

weiwei: you just came into my mind.. even though hardly chatted with her.. but i learn how God really change people life and how she is growing.. stay sweet k!!! :D

rixiang: he...haha.. what more can i say to see this guy can be serious but sometime so funny man.. cannot take it.. hahahahaxx... *keep laughing*

wan ping: my virtuous woman teacher.. don play play.. hehe.. mmm... got some misconception abt her in the past but now NO MORE HOR.. :D she is funny yet funny and yet interesting too.. yep.. amuse.. ops.. but she let me learn something from her too.. :)

eugeniax: this gal is really a blessing for me.. and i love you to bits and miss the times yep... :)

audrey: donnoe whether this gal read my blog.. but she is one cranky person that really cranky.. haha.. when did i stir trouble from her huh.. adelene? aiyo.. always tease me.. i called my ah long for christ gang come.. hehe.. kidding.. :D ops

pastor daniel turns: this pastor..mmm.. really helps me alot of times.. yep.. whenever i really has a series of unknown troubles.. opens up my mind and let me learn alot of things through what he said :D thanks a million of talks

dsd

2005-05-29T22:17:00.000+08:00

this isnt my last entry yet :)

before i go back into my studying mood..
stole my mum com sit for a little entry

I LOVE YOU GUYS A MILLION
1) kisses
2) hugs
3) cookies
4) chocolates
5) ice cream
6) GSS - great singapore sale
7) homeworks
8) coffee
9) jokes
10) verses

heh! ya are worth more than those millions i describe..
stay precious and with God bless too :)
who are those guys?
the guys who are created by God,
tt YOU!
let keep each other in prayer and love and grace! :D

ssssssssss

2005-05-25T17:15:00.000+08:00

i am dead worried
about my chinese.. what going wrong in me exactly
quite bad when exams is near and i am in such a devastating state
donnoe why when exams is near i am always tired not that i slept late..
tt okie for me BUT when i start studying i become dizzy and tired and will binge to satisfied something..
it keeps going on and on... when i had exams ONLY
but when i stop studying, i am okie..
no dizziness no anything...

i am speechless... God,
whats going on in the spiritual realm in me exactly
God, give me your commands to fight this war
allow me to fight with You and gain that victory
kick that satan to the ends of hell..
anyway satan is in hell.. sooooooo...

nnnnnn

2005-05-25T14:53:00.000+08:00

tagging back time :)
i just simply cant tag back in my tag board neither i could tag at adel and pei xia too..
bleahz...
so lastly i shall have to restore to this actions to get back sweetie pies and hunks out there..
but didnt see any hunks at the moment.. hahahaxx.. :)
sweetie pie here i come..

adelene: i am hot red now... after reading ya tags.. choices for ya to choose :)
1) i am blushing
2) putting blushers those extremely red one (errr...)
3) bathing in 100 degree hot water
4) just finish eating a plate of chilli padi for lunch (burp....)
haha... missing ya too =) lets go out one day when ya free yeah!!!!!! :) anyway yeah.. don wan to be like one skinny bimbo... *image* eek! hahahaxx. =) enjoy doing VW? i love tt book lots.. :) hey.. jia you in ya work yeah.. weekends is ringing..

pei xia: xie xie ni.. i love ya here :) lets go out one day with someone who just went to thailand not long ago.. what is ya suggestion?? mmmm.. hehe.. hahaxx.. hehe.. hahazz.. ;p *chuckles cos she is excited* you start school le.. take care yeah.. :D really enjoy doing VW.. ya too rite.. :P

overall, it can be seen that this entry is to these two sweetie pie more than a cell mate yeah :)
*echos* please be PROUD ar... :) hehe

gone a little crazy maybe i just love what God has given me whether good or bad :)
ya think He will give me bad? nah...

mmm

2005-05-24T11:10:00.000+08:00

forgot to add more things...

i realise something that i had been searching the answer for me...
thought that i wont miss thailand.. and the mission trip
cos of me feeling nothings..

i realise...
i miss thailand

i miss nuts for God

i miss the kids

i miss the trips to and fro from school to schools

i miss the work we done for God and salvation in the people with their GAY face showing

i miss team unity and work

i miss how we enjoy and conquer all problems

i miss the time we sing from our way back to longkai.. and its like a hr plus.. hehe

i miss our craps and jokes

i miss the fun with my room-mate too.. karyn!!!!!!!!!!! :)

i miss thailand and i want to go there and do God's work...

is mission my calling??

i don want to do in thailand only...
i want to go all over the world to do His work...
as the world is HIS creation and everyone of us is He who bring life to us

ffffffffffffffff

2005-05-24T10:47:00.000+08:00

a day to the tai tai trip :)

went to batam yesterday for a trip
thought we will be going to some plantation and sort of
but we end up in the salon... :)
altogether there were 11 ppl so
my mum, auntie and uncle and ME we stay in the new salon while others go to the old salon..

the three tai tai went to the the milk spa...
wowowowowowow!!!!!!
is just so good man..
the room i stepped was just so really meant for spa.. anyway it is..
it is definitly worth it..
actually wanna to do facial but not enough helpers..
mum and aunt did somemore and my uncle do from head to toe...
nevertheless.. we are not the worse.. hehe
went to the old salon thought they are okie..
but they are NOT...
waited for like 4 hrs for them to finish...
energy straining indeed... hehe..
but indeed this trip is certainly good..
but i am always helping to figure the zeros they had in their note...

sunday was great too..
great fellowship with lu mei, pin fen and pei xia and hui shan...
waiting to go out with vivian... pls wait my tan lady... less den a week le.. haha :)
and also shopping with pei xia
and if adelene is reading....
NOT that i want to go out with ya
BUT i want to go out with ya too :) hehe..
being cheeky..

and many more ppl....

arh!!!!!! allow this week and monday to pass by fast pls... :)

fffffffff

2005-05-21T02:47:00.000+08:00

stars wars is super duper nice
give it 3.5/5 bits :)
really enjoyed that show very much..
the last time i watch a movie was like months away...
after that went for some nice supper which was like 1.15am
indeed fattening..
stop it steff!!!!!!
but eating ben and jerry in a movie is nice yep :)

read my friend's entry and nevertheless is always about seeking perfection
reading her blog always make me stress up
therefore i seldom read :)
cos its all about guys and insercurities and studies
but i am NOT and NEVER stress up about guys yup.. :)
cos i am still young... duhz..

okie.. anyway realise most older generation adults prefer JCs to poly..
had a conversation with dad today in the car...

dad: stephanie, you can learn driving for your A levels rite..
me: remain slient after hearing A levels
tiff: no.. she can learn when she reached 21

anyway, the whole story is not abt driving..
but A levels...
it send shivers to my ability whether i can really acheive that..
anyway dad has been telling me this eversince last yr and never did he mention to me poly..
ever tried to tell him about poly but........
and so... i am doubtless...
really doubtless and more curious about what God plans ahead for me..

mmmmmmm

2005-05-20T19:47:00.000+08:00

chinese exam today..
quite tough and i am sleepy..
energy drain since mid year indeed..
every meal i ate, not after a while i will fall into deep sleep for like 4 or more hours..

i am getting FAT :(

and worse, these few days kept binging to satisfied something..
but i donnoe..
but my tummy is bloated but i still force myself :(

later, catching star wars with daddy and younger sis..
and is so much LATER..
hope mum can go but no tickets... except three...
and there is something on in the house.. yeah!
been wondering wheres my phone??
i need to contact ppl for tmr and now is gone!!!!
how???
okie.. also have to update something interesting from what i watch...
media really give misconception to ppl and create stories tt don exist
like this touring show..
they went to korea and show mother mary crying from blood to tears and to olive oil
does such things really exist?
guess is one of satan tricks but bleahz
another one i think is the worse of the worst!
the nine pm show in channel 8
zero to hero..
make hell like some comfy zone, no sufferings definitly give an impression to audience that
they need to burn more money and houses in order to pay those taxes for their dead relatives to bless them...
this is so duhz
and guess more pollution and waste of paper is coming soon..

another thing... no cca gives me dis-benefit to me..
nowadays, cca is pior to conduct grade and admission to teritary education
teacher talk alot today but God shows blessing to me..
cos my attendence is 100%..
wow wow wow wow wow wow wow wow wow wow~~~
but seems...
i am speechless...

jjjjjjjjj

2005-05-19T17:10:00.000+08:00

nevertheless, conclusion for mid year exams...
a big Fail, F9
really cannot accept the fact for two whole subjects that confirm which grade i will get..
must study hardER hardER hardER
today donnoe what wrong with me..
besides i had my nap in my class, cos NO lesson
suddenly had a sudden pain in my stomach area
but i confirm plus confirm is not gastric :)
just donnoe why everytime before exams, will have something weird happen..
THIS IS ULTRA-WEIRD
okie.. and.. i am off to study.. :)

hhhh

2005-05-18T19:09:00.000+08:00

everyone is going for their holidays..

firstly, enjoy adelene and andy's father's andy :) flying tmr yeah! sorry.. realise i cant send ya guys off.. have another exams on friday... but enjoy and miss me k...

secondly, my sisters.. ahhh!!! they are leaving one day after adelene.. they are going way long... not tt long but feel weird...

thirdly, my family.. but not me and my elder sis?... :( no worries.. household chores i take care.. hehe..

enjoy k.. will keep ya in my prayer for journey mercy and everything... ;D

got a sudden exams this friday and next tuesday and i also donnoe what school plans next..

chinese for those two exams.. really don have the confidence.. shouldnt i be motivated???

anyway, fare badly for all my papers.. not proud at all and definitly disappointed but i noe this shouldnt go for long..

it will harm.

disa

bbbbbbbbbbb

2005-05-17T16:47:00.000+08:00

update for todays ... todayssss... :)
fnn execution today... everything went hectic..
for me especially but guess all my pals are also too
trying to get the best results of their dishes..
great jobs done for everyone in shift one!!!
hurray..
and nevertheless not forgetting our friends in shift two..
donnoe how they are doing now??? mmm..
okie.. everything just went crop up for me...
i forget to bring flour today and therefore use the food lab one..
which i used like one period sieveing it..
singing and praying during the whole fnn execution..
guess God gave me instruction too..
especially for the salmon and carrot cake..
it may sound ridiculous but why not?
when our God does things, we feel weird abt it yeah!
anyway it turn out well for salmon..
the drinks and appetizer..
but carrot cake.. disappoint me lots..
practice so much.. this is the worse :(
ate so much just to taste on ya, carrot cake.. not as disappointing as ya all think anyway :)
mum also feel weird why the carrot cake turned out tt way..

special thanks to marie and peng and bao for helping eating the salmon and everything..
so i can wash the dish! :D
i love our gals dishes!!!!!! even though i didnt eat some.. but i SMELL IT K
hehess..

this is the BEST fnn practical compare to previous.. most memorable and i ran the most from the table to the fridge here and there.. woah! :)

cant wait to see our fnn practical photos... never get to see my dearies presentation.. :(

anyway got my chinese paper... disppointing too.. :( didnt score well as expected.. got a B3 overall.. have two more papers before Os..

will i ever forget God in my wonderful motivated study plan when He created me? never will i forget Him and hope He enjoy the partnership with me too..

dear Father,

never let me use You as a temporary tool to settle my distatisfaction. but allow me to noe ya and be in my life and guide me through the days when i am still alive in this world but also in heaven. let me study ya word in depths and trust ya in everything ya plan for me :) let me stand firm in You so that dreadful satan wouldnt snatch me away and he can't! give me a forgiving heart to forgive others just as you forgive my sinS... i thank ya in giving me good pals and create me in allowing me to experience things that is so challenging and memorable and fun. Father, continue to show me the way where ya want me to head even it might be ridiculous, i hope. :)

your dearest child

ten things

2005-05-16T19:58:00.000+08:00

things i want/hope/need to do..

1) study for chinese Os!!! :)
2) to the beach.. i miss long long and looooonnnnggggg
3) shopping trips!
4) head for some exercise.. have sore arms and legs now..
5) for some nice hearty meals.. but not CAKES AND BREAD [pls it is pathetic to have more den a week]
6) go for ballet performance
7) to just chill out
8) watch kingdom of heaven!!!

joining anyone??? :D

2005-05-16T19:19:00.000+08:00

the stephanie baking carrot cake stories
the story of carrot cake:
carrot cake is not cha tou kua but carrot CAKE
once upon a time, there was this english famer named carrotie who grows carrots for a living..
and they had carrots everyday for meals just CARROTS and bread [carrots can be in a form of different cooking yeah and ang mohs hardly eat rice]
carroti's wife will be kneading dough to make bread.. and one day.. the wife accidentally poured a mixture of flour and eggs into a bowl of shredded carrot which was meant to prepare for soup.. since the wife is lazy to redo everything.. she decided to mix the carrots and flour mixture together and put into the oven to bake.. and carrot cake was form!!! :D

it will be a greatest jokes.. as cake need sugar to dextrinates and butter to coagulate :)
but i baked a carrot cake k.. and tt no joke :D hahahaxx...
and scalded my hand for twice just for that cake!

thurs

2005-05-12T14:40:00.000+08:00

one more day to weekends!!!
tmr is the last day of exams? hurray?
errrrrr... actually not at all...
next week is practical Os for FNN..
my first paper for Os :)
another project coming up again on july.. also have to do practical..
so troublesome ar... i mean FNN..
change to another song which i like quite alot.. :D
guess is the beat and the tunes that is very smoothing..
busy schedules but yet i enjoy alot..
why?
because of God...
i place all things behind HIM
i trust HIM
i believe HIM
no worries but satan really hits me hard always by giving discomfort..
actually i didnt study for my exams..majority
hardly due to discomfort...
but when i reach the exam hall..
it really seem i noe how to attempt the papers..
and i enjoy doing alot..
weird rite??? mmm
lets see the result when it comes..
really thank God, He let me survive the two papers today..
actually for all my exam papers.. i leave lots of blanks..
due to i cant finish.. :(
today quite bad.. cos i stomach pain on both papers..
social studies and fnn...
terrible.. and is those contraction type..
really cant take it.. keep on praying during exams..
He allow me to pass through those papers..
two papers to go on..